when people ask whether i am okay...

i just nod my head when this is what i really want to say:

no, i am not okay

i am never okay 

anymore

i have lost my guiding light

my good conscience's voice

my kind guardian angel

when she left

i no longer have the will and courage

to stay courageous

but, thank God for that

that i am also not courageous enough

to shorten my life line

and be lost in time