the rainy days' confession

i am trying
still am
to cope with this
my lost and regrets
over things of the past
leaving my presents behind
letting time flows forward
while i'm still immobilized
confusion rules the mind

i question death
death then questions me
i am trapped in my fear of
leaving and living
do i move on
do i stay on
it is too unbearable
this pain is
again, i froze in time