2020... a weird year for me.

2020 is and will always be the weirdest year for me. I have learned so many new things this year. And, I have experienced things that I never have expected to experience at this age (other than the covid pandemic)

- i lost a lot of weight

- i have become more beautiful, yeayy! at least to my eyes.

- i have become more versatile in my singing and my song choice

- i have met new friends that i actually like to keep as friends, i just hope they will continue to like me too. i know, it is hard to like and love someone like me.

- i did some stupid things too and i have acted like a naive child again, yet, i do not have regret over this. i like feeling young and attractive again, even for just a short period of time.

- i have experienced a myriad of feelings, happiness, excitement, sadness, depression and still manage to stay alive 🤭

- i finally manage to love myself.

I guess the last one is the most important one. I have just realised how destructive self-loathing can be. i know it is too late for me to mend some broken relationships now, and i will always regret this until i die, but i will always pray that my love will always be happy, despite all the things that had happened.

well, thank you 2020. you have taught me so viciously, but well. well done, indeed.